Life at 30

Was anyone as anxious as I was turning 30? Or was it just me? I was excited but apprehensive at the same time. I had questions in my head like, have I achieved enough for my age? Am I on the right track? Am I living a purpose driven life? What kind of wife, mother and friend am I? Am I adding value to the lives of those closest to me or am I a leach? This was just the beginning.

As the 21st of March drew closer, I started working towards being a better person in any way I could. Of course I run out of time simply because life is a journey. I was excited to finally have a sit at the older people’s table! I was not so sure if I would have any major contribution though and this to me, was a scary thought.

After months and months of deliberations, doubts, setting extremely high expectations of myself and of course overthinking everything, the 21st March 2018 finally arrived. In a big way. With love, affection and praises. Friends and family went above and beyond to show me just how much I meant to them and how deeply I was appreciated.

I’ll tell you what, instagram did not help my overthinking and self doubts. I mean, we all know we should not take everything we see at self value but for some reason, we still do and we sometimes feel like we have not achieved enough. So to you my dear reader I say, don’t look at other people’s achievements. Look at where you are at in life regardless of your age, improve the weak areas and work towards being someone who will leave a positive mark on this world. What took some people 10 to 20 years you can achieve in 5 years or less.